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[iblistriggered]

It’s never too late to hope for a better future
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[eldritcheyes]

[Damn it, Silver.

Leo finally releases his pillow and squirms around until he can hug his best friend, pressing his face into the soft ruff of fur. It doesn't take long for that fur to start feeling damp.]

I hate feeling like this. It's not fair.

[iblistriggered]

Bwah...!

[Silver is surprised! But once the surprise wears off, he wraps his arms around Leo, too. Oh no, he's crying. Silver rubs his friend's back]

Feeling what way? What's wrong, Leo?

[eldritcheyes]

I....

[It's ugly and he doesn't want to let it out but he's tired of feeling horrible inside.]

I-- it's not Hestia's fault, she was just doing what she was supposed to... b-- but I was so jealous all the time....

[Jealousy isn't much different from selfishness, and that's something Leo hates down to his core.]

[iblistriggered]

[Ah. Jealousy... That makes sense, now]

... right. With.... everyone hooking up and stuff. It's... really easy to feel lonely when everyone is being... like that.

[eldritcheyes]

All the time, everywhere! And I... I just lost White right before 6350 summoned me....

[It's been almost two years and it still hurts. He told her to be strong, but he misses her so much.]

I don't know how much of this is me and how much is Hestia... it... it's all mixed up and I hate it.

[iblistriggered]

I'm sorry, Leo... [Silver frowns and squeezes his friend] I think... I don't think Hestia can make us feel anything, I think she can only increase or decrease those things. But... hey...! Look at you..! At least you have a chance of finding someone! I'm a bachelor for life, you know?

[eldritcheyes]

You think I have a chance just because I'm human? That doesn't mean anything, Silver. There's a lot of people who go through life alone. I... I don't think I even deserve to find somebody, not when I feel this ugly inside.

[He clings to Silver's smaller form. Getting this out doesn't feel healing like people say it does.]

Can we both just be bachelors for life together?

[iblistriggered]

[not immediately. But just like a splinter, you have to take out the nidus of infection to start healing.

Silver laughs a bit, trying to lighten the mood]

Being human in this world means you at least have a chance. But just because you were jealous once... that doesn't mean you're disgusting or ugly. [he chuckles again] But... that sounds fun, too.